In a complete tangle, I try to develop habits of practical thinking and withdraw any emotional reflections I have made upon a decision.
Sometimes I think I am hardhearted, and that, there is no feeling of mercy and forgiveness left in me.
Not after those mishaps.
This thought scares me. In my attempt to be solid to my decisions and convictions, I get a perception of a cruel heed - unforgiving and abominable.
Yet, at the back of my mind, trying to be sane and benevolent, it is simplicity itself, to say:
