For Christa

Keep going, my dear friend!!

Take your time. Slow your pace. Let your tears fall.

Please keep on mind, you have friends around and we need you.

In my darkest hours, you stood by me and are still standing by me. Allow me to reciprocate your good deeds, my dear friend.

To Christa

My heartfelt condolences to you, Christa!

Losing a dear mother leaves a deep cut in mind and heart and I dearly hope that you can stand all the sadness and the sorrows brought by the long sickness and the passing of your beloved Mama.

My thoughts are with you, my dear friend!

Be brave.

Fondly,

mel

It is getting cold in Munich!

Sigh!

 It is cold in my room. The heater does not function well and I wanted to take a shower but there is no warm water. Again.

Sigh!!

One of these days when I think of abruptly packing my things and leave. Just leave. Go home to H.P.P.


Sigh!!!

And after a while, sipping over a cup of coffee, and remembering those who are living in the streets, I can say that I am still lucky to have my shelter. One day without a shower could not be that bad, so as to decide on things without weighing the consequences.

But the consequences could not also be that bad.....

....home again with H.P.P.

Have a good day, everyone!  

Bachuchay, the family dog...

 

 

Our loyal and friendly Bachu! 

The Tale of the two tails Part III

 

 

"The tale of the two tails, Part III"

 

Remembering Einstein, the one with the longer tail, and Purzel, the one with the shorter but geourgeous tail.

Lovely!

Keep calm!

Wisdom pure!

Babang Luksa...

 

 

In Laiya, San Juan, Batangas, Philippines.

 

The family and friends commemorating Mama Naty's First Year Death Anniversary.

Mama's Spirit

Today marks the first year of my mother's death. My family in Trece Martirez, Cavite, Philippines, gathered to light up a candle for her. Mama Naty's spirit is everywhere and her memories will linger.

I remember my mother as the strong woman who firmly stood and bravely fought against the struggles of life. I can proudly say she made it well.

One thing sure, her motherly love remains.

A walk with Christa

Yesterday, Christa and I walked from Harras to Sendlinger Tor. It took us almost an hour but we were glad we have added some kilometers again to our traditional "Munich Walk". We have been exploring the beautiful and interesting scenes and shops in Munich, Germany since March 2011, and it is never tiring nor boring. Munich has still some surprises for us.

The walk ended at our favorite Thai Imbiss in Kare near the Sendlinger Tor. We were lucky to get a place for the Mini-Restaurant were crowded last night. The people know where to get good food at low cost. On top of it, a very friendly team that welcomes with a smile once you step inside the colorful place.

Have a good week, dear readers. Take time for a walk with a dear friend.

Revitalized

A long weekend with H.P.P. in Switzerland revived my mind and spirit.

For the first time in my life that I am experiencing how it is to be being cared, loved and comforted.

It was not just finding the right person with whom I can share my laughters and thoughts but also having someone who can let me feel understood without saying a word.

Soulmates. Just simple as that.

Have a good day, everyone!

"The Big Brother"

 

 

Kuya Gerd arrived safely in Trece Martirez, Philippines.

 

Let me express my heartfelt gratitude for your never-ending concern, love and support to Family Buendia of Cavite. Indeed, you have married a whole family.

 

Herzlichen Dank, Kuya Gerd.

 

 

 

Mama Naty

Smiling through. Missing you.

 

 

 

 

Send In the Clowns...

 

 

Isn't it rich?
Are we a pair?
Me here at last on the ground,
You in mid-air..
Where are the clowns?

Isn't it bliss?
Don't you approve?
One who keeps tearing around,
One who can't move...
Where are the clowns?
Send in the clowns.

Just when I'd stopped opening doors,
Finally knowing the one that I wanted was yours.
Making my entrance again with my usual flair
Sure of my lines...
No one is there.

Don't you love farce?
My fault, I fear.
I thought that you'd want what I want...
Sorry, my dear!
And where are the clowns
Send in the clowns
Don't bother, they're here.

Isn't it rich?
Isn't it queer?
Losing my timing this late in my career.
And where are the clowns?
There ought to be clowns...
Well, maybe next year.

 

It feels good to be home....

Four days free...

Four nights at home...

and am feeling happy and comfortable that I have a nest where I can always return to.

Tempus fugit...

am still waiting for the final decision from the Swiss Immigration Office.

Then I can be (probably) finally back at home soon.... 

For the meantime, enjoy the coldness of Winter and the falling snow!!!


P.S.

Having my mental block, so please bear with me, dear readers.

Augen zu....

Ein Tag geht schnell vorbei -

doch es lohnt sich
einige Minuten
für schöne Dinge und Gedanken

zu nutzen.

Carpe Diem!

A short post...

Work keeps me busy, my calendar is full of training and seminar. After four weeks on my new ward, HNO Surgery and Pulmonology, I got my feedback today. The team where I belong, doctors as well as nurses, expressed their satisfaction having me in their team and their compliments boosted my spirit.

My sister Cora arrived safely in Trece Martirez. She will be staying until December 15 in the Philippines.

I am counting the days until October 25th.  I will be home with H.P.P. 

Feeling better now....

Four weeks passed swiftly.

H.P.P. safely returned from India and am feeling better now knowing he is in a good shape.

In between, I have gained patience and have digested the fact that I have to temporarily leave my new home in Switzerland.

There is a good sign and there is hope that everything will be settled soon. The Swiss Red Cross finally replied to my request.  

I had a long weekend and I was able to regain energy lost the last four weeks. I was with Christa yesterday at the English garden. Walked through the huge park, along the River Isar in Munich.
The English Garden, is said to be the largest city park in Europe, even larger than New York's Central Park. We ate something at the Chinese Tower Biergarten, drank Radler, a mix of  Lemonade and Beer, and we exchanged thoughts on many things.

It was a good talk and a walk with a good friend. 

I stayed in my room today and Mary Jean surprised me with a short visit.

H.P.P., although tired from the long journey, gave me his time and attention. I feel lucky to have heard his voice over the phone.

Goodnight, everyone! Sleep well.

From Szuszi...

Yipeee...

 

Smile, everyone! Happy living!

For Kuya Gerd and Ate Cora

Have a good flight to the Philippines!
Business Class via EK 380er!!!!



 



Quo Vadis?

I will be staying in Munich this weekend. H.P.P. is still in India but coming back home on Sunday.
How I wish to be there when he gets back but I dislike the scenario of leaving him behind on the same day.

My sister Cora is flying to Manila on October 15 to December 15, 2012, and I am wishing her a good flight. Kuya Gerd, her husband is flying to MNL on October 30 to November 27, 2012.

My family in the Philippines will be busy on November 9 to celebrate the First Death Anniversary of Mama Naty. Having missed her funeral last year, I feel dreadful not to be there  but I have not a choice but to stay in Munich for a while.

There is an important reason why I would not come. For sure, Mama Naty will understand that. The daughter I am who is seldom at home when it comes to family gatherings and why should it be changed now?

Have a good Friday, dear readers!

Good day, everyone!

Drifting nowadays.

The waiting is still uncertain.

It is getting cold in Munich. 13 to 16 Degrees Celsius.

Work keeps me busy.

Friends are on holidays.

And....

H.P.P. is in India.

Keep going, everyone. 

Oktoberfest 2012 in Munich

 

Retreatzentrum Schwarzenberg

 

 

Beautiful Allgäu! 

It says all....

 

Timeless. Wisdom. Love. Relationship. Buddha.

"I walk the line"

Johnny Cash...

"I Walk The Line"

 

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine
I keep my eyes wide open all the time
I keep the ends out for the tie that binds
Because you're mine, I walk the line

I find it very, very easy to be true
I find myself alone when each day is through
Yes, I'll admit that I'm a fool for you
Because you're mine, I walk the line

As sure as night is dark and day is light
I keep you on my mind both day and night
And happiness I've known proves that it's right
Because you're mine, I walk the line

You've got a way to keep me on your side
You give me cause for love that I can't hide
For you I know I'd even try to turn the tide
Because you're mine, I walk the line

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine
I keep my eyes wide open all the time
I keep the ends out for the tie that binds
Because you're mine, I walk the line



From Sandra and Keith



Keep going...

 

 

Goodluck, everybody!

Food for thought for today...

 

 

From Szuszi's FB Post

Nickelback's Far Away

"Far Away"

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go



Acquaintances...

Yesterday was full of memories to remember.

I met H.P.P.'s closest relatives and I felt honored and privileged to get personally acquainted with them.

The winding roads from Hof to Coburg fascinated me. Evergreen trees called Fichte, which grows up to 60 meters, cover the mountains and the areas along the highways and they are just fascinating.

 

It was a weekend to remember.

A repeat should be.

A moment like this...

Foto from hgm-press

 

is heartwarming!

From Pirate to Pirate

For Old Sea Swashbuckler,

thank you very mucho!

IhDl,

Dead Man Plank Byrd

Pirate Names

Here is another good find in Internet! 

 



Back to the trails...

 

Sitting inside an Eurocity Train from Winterthur to Munich and listening to the songs of Dire Straits,

I tried not to think of the not-so-good things that happened the last two weeks. 

 

And whispering to myself:

 

"Do not look back. Just turn your back from the mishaps. Just remember the good things that happened and are happening. The rest is only a matter of time. Everything will be settled soon."

 

Indeed, life is a journey and I am in the midst of trying to reach my ultimate destination. What comforts me a bit is that I found my home already and I know where I belong to. I have my rotating axis where I feel comforted, loved and cared. 

 

Let me thank H.P.P. for standing by me. 

 

Have a good Sunday everyone and enjoy the moments.

Going through the hurdles...

 

H.P.P.'s gift from India

Smiling again!!

 

Turbulences of the past two weeks are getting smoother and to sum it all:

 

Love exists and remains.

 

For the first time in my life that I feel guarded, comforted and is being saved from another mishap. H.P.P. took a day off yesterday to attend to bureaucracy concerning my visum to Switzerland.

Temporarily, I will be working again in Munich while waiting for the decision of the Migration Office in Frauenfeld.

 

I shed a lot of tears last week and I must admit I was a bit of emotionally lost.

H.P.P. stands by me and am very, very thankful he does!     

The Nice Son

Last weekend, Fabian, the only son of H.P.P., visited us in Switzerland, and I felt privileged to have met this energetic and friendly young man, who has just finished his Biology Studies in Germany. He is about to travel to Thailand, Cambodia and Vietnam, the same trip I wish to experience sometime next year with Christa.

We travelled back to Munich together and I appreciated his company because it was heartbreaking for me to leave H.P.P. behind alone at home.

What the future may bring worries me a bit. Finally, I have found my home and then suddenly, I would have to leave due to reasons out of my control.

Finding my balance nowadays is not easy but moments shared this weekend with H.P.P. and his nice son gave me some sort of energy to keep going.

Fifty - Fifty

Yesterday, I "brought home the bacon" by getting a work contract, but honestly, I was confronted with the thoughts of being away from home. It would mean a lot of train miles again to and forth Switzerland.

I grabbed the opportunity for time is running away from me and I have to get a job or else I would lose my working visum in Germany. The Swiss Red Cross is taking time to recognize my Nursing Diploma, and there is no other choice but to go back to Munich again.

On the other side, it would be a test of time for H.P.P. and me. Distance should not be a problem at all.

Hopefully....

Always be...

 

Hoping for the best....

Sitting on a bench in the midst of huge trees and moments of tranquility inside Martha Maria Krankenhaus Complex in Munich, Germany, am retrospecting and examining my thoughts and actions nowadays.

Caught in between conflicts and doubts, I have to rearrange priorities and this could mean sacrificing
other important things just to stabilize my working situation in Germany.

If there are other ways and choices, I would prefer to be with H.P.P, bit when circumstances do not allow to, the rest should be another test of time. Can love prevail?

Let us keep our fingers crossed....

The Smile Has It

Having digested the not-so-good news last week concerning bureaucracy in Switzerland (and to my mind: why should it be different from Germany? For sure, there are lots of laws and rules to follow!),
I have to face challenges of time and I should be brave facing all the consequences of my past actions. I needed to return to "good, old Germany" on Thursday to change my residence (again!!!)

I was full of self-pity along the way to Munich and I was asking: "Do I deserve these things happening to me?"

With the help of H.P.P., Christa, Mary Jean and Michelle,Mara and Günter, Kuya Gerd and Ate Cora, and not to forget Frau P. Ludstock of MRI, I was able to gain inspiration again, to keep going.

As I returned from Munich back to Switzerland, H.P.P. is already waiting for me at the train station and from that moment on, seeing his welcoming and loving smile, I thought:

I deserve all these things that are happening to me. 

Happy Birthday, Regine!

 

May all your dreams and wishes come true!

Happy Birthday, Mary Jean!



 

Thank you for your friendship, Mary Jean!

 

Mary Jean, a very dear and supportive Filipina friend of mine, is having her birthday today.

I was not supposed in Munich this time around but situations allowed me to be with her, Christa, Anna Michelle and Manfred. That is the happy side of the story - being with friends who help divert my thoughts and attention on some other things.

The Swiss Red Cross is taking time to acknowledge my Nursing Education in Germany and I have to unwillingly pause for work for lack of the needed requirements.

Patient is needed. This time around, I need the utmost support and care of H.P.P.

Another test of time but things should be done. Bravely, I should stand!

Ubi bene, ibi patria

Wo ist Dir gut geht, dort ist die Heimat.

Meine Heimat ist seit sechs Wochen die Schweiz und ich möchte nie mehr woanders sein. Ich fühle mich wohl wie nie zuvor.   

H.P.P. kommt heute Abend aus Indien via Dubai zurück. Und ich freue mich riesig!

In diesem Sinne: 

Bewahre Dir die Freude an den kleinen Dingen des Lebens,
die Dich immer wieder glücklich machen.....

Flying back home...

For H.P.P. who is on his way from Pune to New Delhi, India, then from there via Dubai, United Arab Emirates to Zürich, Switzerland:

An angel is with you...

She is accompanying you all the way back to me.

 

Helvetia...

A good find in Internet via Google...

"HELVETIA = Switzerland

The name of the Helvetians lived on in the Latin name of Switzerland,Helvetia during the Middle Ages, when Latin was used as a common European language for diplomacy and science. The Swiss Revolution of 1798was first of all a rebellion against the supremacy of the founders of theOld Swiss Confederacy, Uri, Schwyz, Unterwalden and the cities of Lucerne, Zurich and Bern over the rest of the country. So it seems quite logical that the revolutionaries preferred the Latin name Helvetia to the colloquial name Schweiz(in German, derived from Schwyz) or Suisse (in French). Consequently they proclaimed the Helvetic Republic. The name was changed back again when the revolutionary experiment failed. In the Latin form it continued to exist, however.

Today, Helvetia is used as a keyword for Switzerland when a short name not depending on one of the four official languages spoken in different parts of Switzerland is needed.

So the label HELVETIA can be found on Swiss coins and postal stamps, while the abbreviation ch stands for Confoederatio Helvetica, the Latin version of "Swiss Confederation" (hence the CH-sticker on Swiss cars and Switzerland's top level internet domain .ch).

Swiss aircraft are identified by HB-... (H=Helvetia, B=second country code beginning with H) and Swiss radio amateurs by HB9...."

By the way, in Latin, the word Helvetia means help.

Somewhere Over The Rainbow...

 

Music by Harold Arlen and lyrics by E.Y. Harburg

Somewhere over the rainbow Way up high, There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby. Somewhere over the rainbow Skies are blue, And the dreams that you dare to dream Really do come true. Someday I'll wish upon a star And wake up where the clouds are far Behind me. Where troubles melt like lemon drops Away above the chimney tops That's where you'll find me. Somewhere over the rainbow Bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow. Why then, oh why can't I? If happy little bluebirds fly Beyond the rainbow Why, oh why can't I?



Excerpts....

This time in Deutsch, the German Language.

From Gendün Ripoche, Der große Fau, Die Umwandlung der Emotionen im tibetischen Buddhismus:

"Alle menschlichen Wesen sind in ihrem Bestrebungen gleich. Alle wollen glücklich sein und Leid vermeiden. Aber all unseren Bemühungen zum Trotz, jede Form von Leid zu banne, das uns befallen könnte, finden wir uns als Opfer der Wiederstände wieder, hilflos dem ausgeliefert, was geschieht. Dieses Gefühl der Ohnmacht ist auf das Wirken des Karmagesetzes zurückzuführen. Ob wir jetzt glücklich sind oder ob wir jetzt leiden, ist schon durch unsere Handlungen, die wir in der Vergangenheit vollbracht haben, bestimmt."

"May the Force be with You"

Yoda, the Jedi Master

And another excerpts from the book given to me by Mara and Günter:

"Lass den Griesgram griesig sein, denn über Deine Laune entscheidest Du allein..."

Nicht die anderen ärgern Dich, sondern Du ärgerst Dich über die anderen. Du selbst - und ganz allein. Also kannst Du selbst auch entscheiden, dass Du Dich nicht ärgerst."
Excerpts from Neues vom Wunschfänger - Engel von Bärbel Mohr und Clemens Maria Mohr

Keith and Sandra

from Sandra and Keith, two hearts that are longing to be together soon.

From Keith, who is in Australia, and Sandra, who is in San Fernando, La Union, waiting for her travel papers to Australia since 2009:

Thank you, Keith, for the love and care you are giving to my friend, Sandra.

I wish that  you will be together soon!

Tidbits!

I thought Switzerland is a very cold country with all those snow-covered Alps! Yesterday and today, I was sweating all through the day. Up to 38°C!


I feel a bit lonely at home without H.P.P. The first time we are away for more than a week from each other since we are together.

And two days seemed to be years!


I called up Christa in Munich. I wish her mother a speedy recovery. Kopf hoch, Christa! Things change for the better and always remember that

everything happens for a reason. You can climb up that mountain. Take me as your example!


My sister Myla sent me a message that my house in San Fernando, La Union, was not damaged by the typhoon that hit North Luzon.


Mary Jean and Michelle, who are having their holidays in the Philippines, are flying back to Munich today. I wish them a safe journey.


Thanks to Skype. I can keep in touch with H.P.P. once in a while.


Have a good week, everyone!

Secret Emoticons

The Petermanns

Kuya Gerd, Keno, Celine, Cora and Mel in Munich Zoo

My bloodline in Norden, Germany

Thank you, Big Brother! 

A good find...

Any objection???

To India with love...

Wishing H.P.P a safe and a good business trip to India today. Surely, I will be missing him.

Reminiscing the past, I realized that the biggest step I have ever made in my life is to be in a relationship once again and it was H.P.P. who opened the door for me.

I know that it would not be easy for me to adapt and adjust to changes but with an understanding man beside me, I know that I can handle the situation.

I strongly believe that when two hearts are feeling mutual and respect towards each other exists, then there would be just harmony and happiness.

Enjoy your weekend, dear readers!

Rain, Rain, Go Away...

come again another day...

The Flooded City of San Fernando, La Union

August 15, 2012

Photo Courtesy of Annie Munar FB Share

London Summer Olympics

Dabei sein ist alles...
The Philippine Delegation







Friends everywhere...

 Danke, liebe Christa!
You have been very supportive and helpful. I hope and wish that someday,
I can return all the favors you have been doing and giving to me.
Take good care!

Alice and Gingging

Lyn
My childhood bestfriend. Still keeping in touch through the years.

-and more photos to come.....

Mara, Günter, Dominik, Tobias, Isolde, Annamarie, Lucy
Mary Jean, Manfred and Michelle
Carmen, Anke and The Schwarzenbergers
Nora and the 7/1 Klinikum rechts der Isar
Former Colleagues from Klinikum
Christine Danzl
Facebook Friends
Familie Fester from Crailsheim
Corinna Klingler from Crailsheim
Jhe, Jam
The Children of the Friends of Germany

Thank you for the never-ending moral support.

One fine day....

Everything is going on smoothly...

and it is a good and comfortable feeling when you know that someone out there thinks of you.

The sun still shines in Switzerland.

My world is changed and my life has been touched by H.P.P.

Day to day, I am just enjoying my fate and luck to be with him.

Thank you very much, H.P.P!

Harmony...

Last week, my world was full of unbelievable moments!

Kismet it is that I am here in Switzerland.

And the luck keeps on pouring in.

First, love and soulmate found me or vice versa.

Second, I got a work contract and am now officially registered in my new hometown.

I met a lot of people last week and have worked pleasantly.

The rest is simply harmony. 

Life as it should be.

Have a good day everyone.

Explosion of emotions...

Truly, when luck comes, it knocks unexpected.

Chirpy as a lark, happy as a clam am I!

For the first time in my life, I can say that:

Life is beautiful with H.P.P. on my side.

We are meant for each other.

Or else, I would not be in Switzerland!

For you, H.P.P. Thank you for coming

into my life.

I love Switzerland!

I trusted my instincts and followed my heart.

And I will never regret it.

 

Goodbye, Germany!

Today, I got my working contract as Nursing Assistant in Switzerland.

A new life. A new start.  

I am beginning from the bottom once again but I am happier than before.

Life is good and beautiful.

P.S.
I must admit, I still love Germany. I have my dear friends there.
Auf Wiedersehen, Deutschland!

Regenerated....

and back to life!

Gruezi!!



Exile...

Germany and The Philippines in Exile in Switzerland.

When steps are aching...

... "Quarkwickel!"

"The Wounded Knee"

Get well soon! Ily.

Stop...

Know your boundaries...

learn to say stop!

Use the right shield on the right time.

H.P.P. 's  great idea, just came in on the right time.

All my pretty horses...

Klak........klak........klak........klak.......

I heard these sounds this morning as I was opening the terrace door in my new dwelling.
The sonance came from the steps of a brown-colored horse crossing the street. 
I love horses. They symbolize not only strength but also endurance to me.

Come to imagine the characters of  Tolkien's Lord of the Rings without their powerful horses!

Legolas without Arod?
Glorfindel without Asfaloth?
Frodo Baggins without the Bill The Phoney?
Aragorn without Brego?
Merry without Bumpkin?
Tom Bombadil without Fatty Lumpkin?
Rohan without Firefoot?
Eorl the Young without Felarof?

And without Flood, the horse-shaped water which washed out the Nazgul Horses in Bruinen?

Eomer without Hasufel?
Vla Orome without Nahar?
Fingolfin without Rochallor?

Not to forget Roheryn, which means the "horse of the lady", given to Aragorn by his lady -love Arwen.

Shadowfax, my favorite horse, a grey-silver stallion, the mighty horse of Rohan tamed by Gandalf!

King Theoden's Snowmane.

Stybba, the pony given by Theoden to Merry.

Last but not the least, Windfola, Eowyn's Meara grey horse.

For sure, without those powerful and loyal companions, they wouldn't be able to save the Middle Earth!

As for me, there is a mighty horse beside me and his name is H.P.P.

Adapting to a few..

changes in my life and living in Switzerland.

More about last night, the First of August, 2012.

I watched with excitement the fireworks celebrating the Swiss National Holiday, also known as the Wilhelm Tell's Day, the National Swiss Hero of Liberty.  ( Yes, the one with the bow and the apple...)

I had also my "Full Moon Bath", my first in Switzerland. ( Physically alone but the thoughts were shared, thanks to Skype.)

The first heavy rain with furious lightning and thunderstorms I experienced in Switzerland, some minutes after fireworks colored the moonlighted and peaceful sky.

Yes, things can change in a wink of an eye but so as long the day starts with a sunshine, there is hope that everything will go just right.

P.S.

Get well soon, H.P.P.

Harmony...

This is how we enjoy life together. A comfortable terrace with a newly-bought grill.

The rest you can please imagine.

Red, White Cross and White Dots....

and an Eggbreaker.

My inner life with H.P.P.  As normal as it is but full of happiness.

Get well soon, H.P.P. and please safely come back home to me.